Day 4 of the Whole Life Challenge, or Please Make it Stop
I actually kind of fucking hate this challenge.
For those of you who do not know, the Whole Life Challenge is an 8-week fitness, health and wellness program that challenges you to treat your body well. You are encouraged to eat right, get good sleep, drink lots of water, stretch, work out and be well. There is a list of foods you can and cannot eat. Let me break it down for you: you can eat, like, celery. You cannot eat any of the things that make you happy (dairy, soy, gluten, sugar, alcohol, soda, chocolate, etc.).
Today I am especially grumpy and I really want to quit. Like, a whole lot. But, I won’t, even though water tastes like unhappiness. Yes, I have tried “detox waters” and I have put lemon in my bottle and, no, it doesn’t fucking help. If it isn’t Diet Coke or beer, I don’t really want it. While I am allowed one glass of wine per week, that doesn’t do much to make me feel better. I haven’t partaken in this for the first week yet because I am afraid to waste it, should a day arise where I need that small glass of comfort later in the week. But, nevertheless, it is not Diet Coke, nor is it beer, so it will only be a small comfort.
Look — I am terribly overweight and I need to take better care of my children’s mother. For far too long I have sought asylum within the beautiful confines of junk food and chemical additives. It is no good at all. But, I wonder if this is any way to live. A long life without chocolate is not necessarily a better life, amirite?
Everyone keeps telling me that it will get better. But, my muscles hurt from my workout, my tastebuds are mad at me and I am tired despite getting enough sleep. I want to curl up in a ball and feel sorry for myself.
So, there is your little ray of sunshine from me today! Please comment and tell me something happy in your life so I can live vicariously through you. Or comment with a picture of french fries or with a story of how fit and healthy you are so I can be happy for/hate you…